The Wishing Well

"I identified myself completely with him...I have been crucified with Christ. Galatians 2:19 The Message
For every cunning Caiaphas there was a daring Nicodemus. For every cynical Herod, there was a questioning Pilate...For every turncoat Judas there was a faithful John. There was something about the crucifixion that made every witness either step toward it or away from it...Two thousand years later the same is true...We can do what we want with the cross. We can examine its history. We can study its theology...Yet the one thing we can't do it walk away neutral." --Everyday Blessing Max Lucado

All day I have been glued to this screen trying to write papers until all of the life is sucked out through my fingertips. I can't think straight anymore and I only have one essay accomplished. How does this happen? I am itching inside to run around and scream and laugh and do anything but school work for a very long time but this chain and ball relationship with my laptop (and lack of roommates and friends this weekend) prohibits any of that. Bekah is gone with her family all weekend and my dear roommates will return tomorrow from a 7 day adventure in gymnastics land down in Louisiana. It's been good to have no distractions today - but I was hoping to have more accomplished.

During all my research reading and writing I ran across something worth noting:
"Spirituality, then is not worship, prayer, or meditation as distinct from ministry, politics or work. It is the way we wrestle with our buying and selling, working and playing, loving and fighting, voting and praying, ministering and being ministered to, integrating them all into a single response to who God is. Our prayers are no more or less a response to who God is than is our public policy. Spirituality is a matter of who I am, but never apart from what I do. It is being and doing in unison. And so, while "who I am" is never fully disclosed by "what I do," "what I do" is always incorporated into and is never separate from "who I am." --Compassionate Ministry by, Bryan P. Stone (emphasis mine)

I'm quite ready to crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head hoping some supernatural phenomenon will occur and when I wake up everything will be finished. Maybe I'll just put in Harry Potter and continue to type my blood and soul into the wee hours of the morning.