Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Happy New Year!

12-31-2016

Another year of learning, growing, and bumping around all clumsy. 
Selah

A year focused on pausing was so necessary - far from perfect, but it feels ingrained now. And I felt a spotlight on some areas where I truly struggle to pause - I can name those now. Keep fighting for those moments where I push back on the panic and pace of life.

I am also pretty pleased with my SippingSelah project - also not perfect - and not every capture as stunning as I usually wanted. But looking back through all of them I realized what a crazy ride this year was and how glad I am they were captured in this way. And I was also humbled by friends encouraging and embracing this project and bigger vision.

Friends. Pausing widened spaces for connection that I normally push aside. There is still room for growth - but time and space are bending. Flexibility marks this year, which doesn't mean I have mastered it by any means, but I have released quite a bit of my usual protest. As I spoke about in an earlier post, I learned that pausing is less in my control than I had romanticized. I wanted to control when and how I paused and usually I found a different way of being during those many forced pauses. 
In that post, I wrote:
Learning to be in that uncomfortable space of unknowns and anxiety. Learning to actively pause - if that can be such a thing - engage with the pause instead of pounding on the locked door screaming that you want out. Instead, to sit in the silence and observe. To allow those pauses to teach me and strengthen me. Each time they arrive (which has been a lot lately) they don't seem to be any less scary, but I think this is a much bigger exercise in trusting. Pausing when every nerve and fiber is screaming to do the opposite. 

So many chaotic weeks, miscommunication, disappointed expectations, technology meltdowns - all part of the pausing territory that I hadn't anticipated. 

Re-writing my expectation of what the space to pause looks like. The time and space isn't always ideal - but that doesn't mean you can't pause. In fact, those moments necessitate a pause more than the quiet room with a candle. Fighting for Selah, and being grateful for the imperfect moments, which I am still practicing to embrace. 

So, 2017? What's on that horizon of yours? 

Around November a word kept appearing and I began to toss it around. It feels like a natural transition from Selah, Selah part two perhaps. 

Shalom



A Hebrew word meaning hello, good-bye, peace...
completeness, soundness, welfare...
peace.

I have a feeling Shalom, like Selah, does not come automatically or always easily - but with intention. In community and not really of my own accord, but in leaning into God's provision. 
Communion with God in the hard moments. Where hearts are broken, the world looks fuzzy and wild, and when you're weary. 
And also in the joy, the laughter, the light. 

Cheers 2017 & Shalom!

2016, Selah | 2015, Prayer & Courage | 2014, Be Still | 2013, Grateful


Saturday, December 31, 2016

[Week 52]

12-24-2016
Colorado bound

12-25-2016
Cheering on our team {no matter what} at Broncos Headquarters (aka mom's living room)

12-26-2016
Wine and laughs with the BFF

12-27-2016
Family dinner in Denver

12-28-2016

12-29-2016
Friendship bribes <3 em="" for="" nbsp="" p="" ride="" thanks="" the="">

12-30-2016
Sunbreak Cafe and Anderson family love

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[Week 51]

12-17-2016
Brie Bear time & enjoying her new chic space!

12-18-2016
It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.
Also, Amazon Prime, I love you.

12-19-2016
Comfort food and Catfish

12-20-2016
Favorite traditions with a new twist

12-21-2016
First Day of Winter | Winter Solstice | It's only brighter from here <3 p="">

12-22-2016
Office treats

12-23-2016
Anderson Family Christmas!

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[Week 50]

12-10-2016
Dear cold, please go away.
I didn't get to 10 on 10 because: sleeping, coughing, can't breath fog.

12-11-2016

12-12-2016
Christmas in my cup :)

12-13-2016

12-14-2016
Dear sun, please come back.

12-15-2016
Date night!

12-16-2016
Beer & kitty cuddles

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[Week 49]

12-03-2016

12-04-2016

12-05-2016

12-06-2016
New favorite study spot

12-07-2016
Last day of finals...

12-08-2016
Celebrating!

12-09-2016
S*N*O*W!

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[Week 48]

11-26-2016

11-27-2016
Paper writing fuel. 

11-28-2016

11-29-2016

11-30-2016

12-01-2016

12-02-2016
Lots of coffee and decking the halls

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[Week 47]

11-19-2016
Treats from the hubs <3 p="">

11-20-2016

11-21-2016
Mondays.

11-22-2016
Thanksgiving: CPE staff style!

11-23-2016
First red cup of the season! 

11-24-2016
Eggnog & rum
Friendsgiving success

11-25-2016 

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