As Winter Quarter comes to a close...
...I have officially become addicted to coffee. I said I would never be a coffee lover. It was gross. Well, today I ordered regular drip coffee from Pura Vida and enjoyed it. We bought a coffee maker and I've utilized it more than once. Starbucks and coffee shops have become my favorite stop.
...I turned into a jogger. Something else I said would never happen. But, it did. And I enjoy it. I'll enjoy it more when it's not always on a tredmill - when it's warm enough to venture outside and not get rained on.
...I learned that English is simply not the major for me. While I've never felt more defeated and exhausted in a subject, I know that my writing has improved (even if some of my professors think otherwise). I'm anxious to see what's behind "door #3" because Door #1 proved nothing, Door #2 proved to be a headache, and hopefully Door #3 will bring some peace of mind.
...Animal Biology is really fascinating.
...I need to keep praying. Pray. Pray. Pray. My life belongs to God and its due time I stop trying to be in charge. He made that loud and clear with these stupid English classes. The only way I'm going to move forward and get through is prayer. After the opportunity of listening to Metropolitan Kallistos, I keep thinking about his message on prayer. And how relaxing it is to whisper the "Jesus Prayer" throughout the day.
After a quarter where I feel like I was dragged through the mud, it comes to an uncertain end. I hate how I let grades define me. There comes a point where my best is simply not going to be enough. I just need this next week to be over. I just need the ridiculous re-writes, papers and finals to end. I'm out of steam. I was out of steam since the beginning, which makes this last week even harder.
Bleh. Winter-time blues.
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