When it comes down to it. There are just not enough hours in the day.
I know I am not the first to reach this epiphany so I will join the long line of overachievers, multi-taskers and raving lunatics from lack of sleep and long lists to accomplish. I'm near that point myself.
It is also unfortunate (sort of) that I want to do so much. Or that so much opportunity is given! Don't get me wrong I know how incredibly blessed I am but in turn I want to do everything and that is just not possible. The hours just zip by. Yet when I'm in class I'm pretty sure the clocks stop.
I got to use my rainboots yesterday. It was fabulous and I stayed dry! Then it hailed, and snowed. Which rainboots have no use for.
I am struggling with this application and if I even want the job. The list of pros and cons are fairly even and significant. It's giving me a stomach ache. Is that a sign? Is this what I'm supposed to do? I wish someone would just tell me ahead of time and I don't have to find out "through the process" because its a long and involved process that I already don't have time for.
I feel like I'm between a rock and a hard place. The reasons I don't want it are selfish. The leading reason I want it is selfish. I'm so incredibly frustrated, I just wish I knew what I wanted and I wished it had the potential to work out better than it is.
I don't know.
I do know I have mounds of homework I should be doing.
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