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Everyday on my walk to and from campus from my apartment there is a bag of some sort of wet, black, chunky nastiness caught in a tree perilously swaying from side to side. I have a great fear that it is going to land on my head. It occupies my thoughts each and every day as I quickly walk under it. It's hard to walk around it unless I purposely crossed the street where there are no trees with disgusting unknown concoctions hanging from their limbs threatening my dignity. By that's altogether out of my way.

I saw at Fred Meyer yesterday that the 20 fl oz Cokes all have white caps. Paranoid as I am, I began to wonder if that means no more coke rewards...I just got going!! I've been diligent in my search for those little red caps with codes and those cardboard cutouts. What will I occupy my time and energy towards if cokerewards are gone?? Maybe now I can give up soda for lent....

For Bible study this week I had to read the story of Esau and Jacob which I had never read before. And it disturbed me and confused me all the more about the divine providence stuff. I'm not sure I can find God's providence in this story - I don't believe God wanted or steered Jacob to make Esau sell his birthright and then trick his father into giving him the blessing instead of Esau - then runs away after that! Another thing that irks me about that story: Isaac says he already blessed Jacob, it was too late. Why couldn't he bless Esau? Is there some rule in OT times where you only got ONE blessing you could give, and I'm pretty sure it's not Isaac doing the blessing either - it's ultimately God's decision. So after this passage I would like to know what God says. What was His reaction, thoughts, anythings, about this? I'm so frustrated, and I know I'm going to go to class tonight and Dr. Spina's just going to ask us more questions and I'm going to be more confused than ever. I wish there was the Bible and then maybe....a book of answers. Like in literature when the author talks about why they wrote the story and what it really means. Where's that part of the Bible?

I watched my favorite Friends episode the other night, The One Where They Stay Up All Night...makes me laugh every single time:
"Phoebe Bouffet."
"....fire alarm??"